keeping a promise

sometimes the hardest thing to do is keep a promise. it's even harder when you're keeping a promise to yourself. i guess it's easier when it's someone else's promise because breaking it might jeopardize your friendship, and we don't really want to burn bridges. making a promise to yourself takes more effort, more control and discipline. there is no one to tell you not to do it, because it was your promise to make, no one else's. it's easier to fall off the wagon because it's not like you promised it to anyone else. there are no relatioships to ruin, no moral conflict with someone else... just you and your head and your promise.

i've made a promise to myself that i am having trouble keeping. im just crossing my fingers i can keep it.